John is sleeping comfortably right now although it is a drug induced sleep. He had another seizure earlier tonight and the decision has been made that hospice will be contacted tomorrow morning. John is tired. Tired of hospitals, tired of tests, tired of taking pills, tired of feeling sick, tired of living in pain and not being able to do the things a normal 27 year old does. He is not tired of watching his son grow or of loving his wife, but the process of staying alive is getting too difficult for his tired body.
As much as i can agree with him, I do not want to let him go. I love him so much as only a mother will understand. It has been a very difficult day for me. If I have not answered my phone it is not because I do not want to talk but rather because my emotions are a little too close to the surface right now. We have not been told but we believe the time is short with the extent of brain tumor activity. Thank you all for continued prayers.
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Linda, Just know we are here if you want us or need us...You know we are praying and sending love to all
All our love and prayers are with the entire Stanford clan. You all will be in our constant thoughts and prayers.
Love,
Carrie and Jon
We are praying for you and the entire family.
Love, Marybeth & Andy
Linda, My heart goes out to all of you. Please know you are in our prayers.
Love,
Katie
I am praying for your Mother's Heart - there is not a stronger or more delicate and sensitive organ!
I love you so and will be there for you in any capacity you need from me.
Sending warm thoughts and Grand Canyon sized prayers from Scottsdale, AZ. God Bless you all.
Prayers and much love continue to flow to you. Lean on your faith and call on your friends as many of us will come to your side.
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