Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Waves of grief continue
I have been communicating with others who have endured grief and I have found that it is quite normal at the 5-7 month range to again be hit by the immensity of a loss. For some reason we are programmed to get through the immediate months after just by doing things that need to be done without thought. It is in this next stage that again the grief hits hard because it has finally had time to sink in. John will never be coming back. AJ will never know his Dad except through stories and pictures. Jesi will never grow old with her husband and celebrate anniversaries. Jessica does not have a big brother to call on. It has been a very hard week and then today while I am cleaning the laundry room shelves I find a copy of the funeral program. Of course I read it and remembered and doubled over in tears. I guess it is good they come out but the painfulness of grief is intense. I am glad to know it is "normal" to still feel such a loss and yet know I am basically OK. I can smile and enjoy life. I am happy to be alive and needed but I am still trying to figure out this new life without John. A part of my heart is missing.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
2 comments:
Linda: You are loved by family and friends and most importantly a God who grieved his Son's death on the cross and Christ who endured such pain. No words can make it better for you, just know we are in prayer for you and carry your burden. Ecclesiastes says there is a time to grieve but there will come a time when that eases. Janet
I love you and know that there are many things that we will never get or understand this side of heaven. You are wonderful and human - and it is only natural you will miss John intensely. Feel the support of family and friends, and although it will never make up for John, take the comfort of knowing you are loved and he is where we all want to be someday!
Loving you.
Post a Comment