"Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell."
Edna St Vincent Millay
Thoughts of John have been close to the surface this week for no apparent reason. Some good and some still painful. I know life is going on at a pace we can't control but sometimes I find myself still wishing I could have just a little more time with him. He was such a great son and I was so proud of him. I just wish I had known that our time together would be so short.
I am looking forward to Jessica's visit next week and my time with her will be precious because of the lessons learned. You cannot go back in time. Spent it wisely.
After 3 consecutive days of golfing I guess cleaning the house is a nice change of activity. Friday I played at Fostoria Country Club in a Toledo District event, Saturday was the Belmont Founders Day event and Sunday was a friendly game with neighbors. Fortunately the weather has been delightful and the scores OK. I truly cannot believe that August begins this week. The summer is passing much too quickly.
I am sure the level of activity has helped to keep my mind occupied and out of the hole Edna Millay speaks of.
2 comments:
Hey Sweet Friend - I continue to marvel at how well you are doing throughout your grieving process - thank you for sharing your thoughts and wonderful words with all of us. Know that you are loved dearly.
Hi Linda: Can't believe I might be the first to comment. I'm getting used to this from Tim's blog. Thanks so much for sending him messages..particularly while we were out of easy internet connection in Indiana. Speaking of golf..I actually played 9 and if you want to feel better call me and I;ll tell you my score...that will cheer you up. I'm sure when you say your scores are "ok" I would be jealous. I'm free for lunch most days this week so if you feel like getting together just let me know. I can't take the hurt away but perhaps we'll find something to laugh about and forget for a little while. I'm spending a little more time in prayer for you and all the family this week..that the God of comfort will wrap his arms around you. Love, Janet
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