As a mom I always told my kids when the lights flickered it was someone in heaven telling us they were looking in on us. I know this is probably just an old wives tale but on 2 occasions I remember remarking to the kids about a light flickering. Shortly after my brother in law died we had a family room lamp that would go off for no apparent reason. And the same thing happen after my father in law died. So when amidst all of the food preparations on Thanksgiving day the kitchen light flickers we all laughed and talked about John checking in on us. Now, I admit, my kitchen light has had a flickering problem that I am sure is an old neon light ballast that needs to be replaced, but the light hadn't had a problem in months. And it was only a problem when you turned the light on. Thursday the flickering occurred while the light had been on for several hours.
We all enjoyed remembering and including our thoughts of John in the festivities of the holiday. Of course as a mom when everything has returned to "normal" I still am pondering the thoughts of John. If in fact there is another dimension, be it heaven or space or whatever, I would like to think we can check back in. And I would be happy to have John see that we have all moved on in our lives. That is what he would want. The family and friends that filled our house this weekend were wonderful. We ate spectacular food prepared with love. We watched football. We were happy. But what makes me sad is that John wouldn't see all of the little moments that we still so badly miss him. Of course even as I write that I know he knows that. We love you John, we miss you. Happy Thanksgiving....thanks for checking in on us. We are doing OK.
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