This past week has slid by quickly. Lots of activities have kept me away from the computer and in anticipation of vacation I have been busy. Of course April 15th, tax day, has added some additional tasks. The days continue to be easier than the nights in the process of dealing with grief. I don't know why it is but when I wake up at 2 or 3 or 4 AM the reality of the fact that John will never be here again hits me the hardest. I think the fact that in the middle the night the feeling of being alone is the greatest too. It is the hardest time to divert your attention to another subject so consequently it becomes a downward struggle to even think about something else. I am trying lots of mental tricks that have been offered and so far some of them have helped a little. I am definitely looking forward to a change of scenery too. A little more sunshine will be helpful and hopefully when we return to Perrysburg there will be more nice weather than bad.
"The journey of a thousand miles must begin with a single step."
Lao Tzu
I saw this quote twice in the last 24 hours so I guess it was meant for me to ponder. Life is a journey and in order to continue along the path sometimes it has to be done one step at a time. I continue to put one foot in front of the other.
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More from Lao Tzu.....
“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”
Amazing guy. While our European ancestors were sleeping under trees and grubbing for a meal, he was writing a book we would look to for inspiration 2500 years later.
I too like the idea of taking "one step" - it seems so doable and still moves you in that forward direction! I continue to be so proud of how well you are dealing with everything, inspite of your tremendous loss of John.
I always look at vacations as some time off the planet - hope it will give you the distraction and change of scene you desire (that will be my prayer for you).
You remain in my thoughts and heart!
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